Approximately February of 2020, KSLtv news report regarding a Utah Native’s strange encounter w/Chad Daybell in Kaua’i following arrest of Lori Vallow Daybell. I ran across this a couple weeks ago and couldn’t believe I missed this story. I have gone to extensive measures in trying to be aware of and watch as many news updates regarding Lori and Chad Daybell. Now as I look back, Life at that time was literally a constant state of PANIC & I was always in “FIGHT OR FLIGHT MODE”. I remember feeling extremely jumpy, easily startled, and would jump out of my skin if I heard a loud and unexpected noise. I believe this is Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD). Although I was not physically there when these horrible acts were happening to Tylee, JJ, and my Uncle Charles, I am guessing that just empathizing and having to “wonder” and guess about how things actually happened with their untimely deaths, this left me with so much anxiety and I couldn’t bear not knowing the truth of how their murders actually played out. Speculation and not actually knowing the details of their murders bother me more than anything. I’m sure this does not sound normal to most people but as for myself, I feel compelled to know everything because the not knowing kills me. It leaves too much work for my brain to try and fill in. I feel that once I hear the facts surrounding their murders, YES IT WILL HURT TO HEAR BUT…. it will then be known and I feel I can begin working on healing from these tragic and heartless acts. I am not saying this is the right way to feel about this, but it is my way through to the other side.
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