My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD).
This video contains some intense themes. I express anger as I process. I suppress & shutdown anger strongly.
Have been very triggered past few days with people prioritising ‘kinks’ over others wellbeing. I changed my name because it became a trauma trigger after pressured into things I am not normally interested in.
When I am manic, I was more attracted to risk-taking. After to sexual traumas (childhood and adult), I have subconsciously done trauma re-enactment. Ended up triggered and retraumatised. This is a common scenario for survivors of trauma.
One cannot consent if they are coerced, do not have capacity to consent. There is extra vulnerability with both bipolar and PTSD. There can be denial.
One the core themes in my novel, Pet Purpose, is the effects of the sexual traumas. I condensed characters and scenes to condense, but it is the essence of my story.