For 38 years, Jeff Alwine served valiantly and courageously as paramedic, firefighter and police officer. He witnessed many horrifying traumas through those years, but he was trained to disassociate emotionally and deal with things professionally. Eventually, the years caught up with him, until he couldn’t handle the job anymore. In fact, he couldn’t handle life anymore. With full blown PTSD, Jeff recounts the moment when he made the fateful decision to take his life. This is a powerful video for those who may be experiencing similar situations.