My name is Xanthe Wyse. I have been diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder. I am on meds to help reduce the severity and duration of mood episodes.
The crashes are still pretty rough but not as severe on meds as they are off meds or on the wrong meds. This morning I filmed some of my processing during a crash after being triggered.
I am now exhausted and my mood is low. This is after feeling more productive, energetic, sleeping less (hypomania) for more than a week.
With the abuse of power trigger to do with WINZ (work and income NZ) – benefits government department, I had thoughts of not being able to do this any more (be here). I’ve had bipolar for over 20 years and PTSD for over 40 years. Having a voice helps keep me fighting for a reason to live. Having a voice is taking back power.