Feeling guilty about No Contact with a narcissistic mother

Feeling guilty about No Contact with a narcissistic mother: “I´m 59 years old and have always carried around a constant sense of shame and anxiety, but I didn’t use to know why. My 2 siblings went no contact with our mother a few years ago and I have very little contact with either of them. In spite of the terrible feelings I have about my mother, I feel deeply sorry for her, so I continue to communicate with her and occasionally visit her, most of the time in a gray rock state, but on a bad day I resent and loathe her and it just sometimes just seethes inside of me. Even on a good day, I feel anxious about her. It´s like my little girl inside totally loves her and remembers good times when she seemed like a loving human being. But, now, as an adult, I realize I don´t like her at all. What kills me is that I am the mother of three kids myself and I can’t even begin to imagine the heartbreak if one of them went NC with me. I’m all she has left and going no contact just doesn´t seem like a black and white decision to me, in fact, in my case, it seems a cruel thing to do. Also, even if I did go NC, I would continue to feel tormented mentally and emotionally. Just to let you know, I am in therapy and on medication for depression. I guess I would just like to ask you to talk about making such a decision when I know I would feel terrible about myself. I just can’t seem to find my way out of her grip on my soul. I just signed up for your sana recovery course, but if you could speak a little about what I am describing I would really appreciate it.”

Mothers Who Can’t Love: A Healing Guide for Daughters

Will I Ever Be Good Enough? Healing the Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers

Meredith’s book THE JOURNEY: A Roadmap for Self-healing After Narcissistic Abuse — http://bit.ly/TheJourneyMM

Get a FREE beginners course to help you start self-healing now. Just enter your name and email on the homepage — https://innerintegration.com

Are you ready for the NEXT LEVEL? The 12-WEEK SANA (Self-healing After Narcissistic Abuse) course will help you get there — http://bit.ly/12-WeekSANA

Are you ready to create a whole NEW RELATIONSHIP with yourself and eradicate your people-pleasing patterns? The SELF-CARE MASTERY COURSE is what you’re looking for — http://bit.ly/TheSCMC

STRATEGY SESSIONS via Skype or email with Meredith — http://bit.ly/CoachingwMeredith

WEBSITE: https://innerintegration.com

— iTunes: https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/inner-integration-podcast/id1418633395
— Mental Health News Radio Podcast Network: http://www.mentalhealthnewsradionetwork.com/our-shows/inner-integration/
— Find us on the BINGE Network TV app on your smartTV in the Mental Health genre!

Inner Integration
— Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/InnerIntegration
— Instagram @inner_integration
— Medium @OwnYourReality

NOTE: Meredith Miller is not a therapist or counselor — She is a holistic integration coach, helping you to self-heal after abuse and transform your life. She works with a mind-body-spirit approach to wellness that is a valuable complement to traditional psychotherapy. She recommends that you also seek out a licensed therapist who has experience with narcissistic abuse and understands these dynamics extensively in order to help you with the Complex-PTSD, especially in the early stages of recovery. Thank you for taking responsibility for yourself!

Thank you so much for your support and for tuning into this message. If you find this content helpful, PLEASE LIKE, SUBSCRIBE & SHARE! I am grateful that you help me share my message with those who can benefit from it.

Source: Youtube