Feeling valued and appreciated in the workplace – or not. Burnout cycles.

My name is Xanthe Wyse, diagnosed bipolar 1 disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder.

Sedated in this video, after my evening meds.

I have been working part-time for 3 years, flexible merchandising work, working around mood crashes, shutdowns etc, not taking sick leave.

I recently resigned from one job after a massive mood crash. Need a week off then have been doing my best to keep the other job. I didn’t work out the notice period and had a medical certificate. I recorded some of the stress that I was under recently.

The workplace paid out annual leave but no sick pay. I was on minimum wage and had made the extra effort to do my best. Won a positivity award and was nominated for 2 partnership awards by my former manager, who left. They seemed ‘nice’ but I didn’t feel appreciated or valued. Just another cog to be easily discarded. That’s how I feel.

I felt emotional when a store I went into said my former manager had been in and said I was amazing. She left over a year ago. I tend to get burnt out in jobs. It is nice to on the odd occasion, to have been appreciated for my efforts.

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