My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar disorder (type 1), post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder.
When my mood is elevated (hypomania, mania), it overrides my social anxiety disorder. So I care less about people judging me in negative ways. Mood is hypomanic in this video. Hypomania is elevated mood but not full mania.
I use music and movement to help regulate my mood with bipolar and PTSD. To help bring me out of depression and also to help discharge the energy when elevated and ramp it down. Manage the extremes of energy. Have shown this in multiple, raw, unedited videos.
I don’t want the bipolar fully suppressed as otherwise I’m like a zombie. I am minimally medicated to balance out the side effects with the benefits.
I try stay fit physically which also helps me be fitter mentally. Best I can be with the cognitive impairments with my disabilities.
Was listening to Toxic (Britney Spears) at the beginning (had listened to it on repeat several times while processed some stuff). One of the songs I had lip-synched to on the mania compliation video from when I was off meds and in denial of bipolar diagnosis (with lingerie dance).
I jump around a lot when my mood is elevated as my mind can’t stay in one place but sees multiple links all at once. That’s why I often go to visual instead like paintings. My paintings are all symbolic metaphorical mind maps with multiple meanings. More efficient for story telling than using words.