Mental Illness and Depression: An AVD Film

My name is Elise Marzolf and I have been diagnosed with 7 different mental illnesses: Borderline personality disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, major depressive disorder, anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, and ADHD.

I focused this film on depression because of a DM I received from someone a few weeks ago. The day before admitting themselves, they sent me the following words, “….I don’t want to be treated like I’m psycho…yeah I’ve been wanting to kill myself but that doesn’t mean I’m still not me…”.

I haven’t been able to get away from that message. I felt that. I’ve known that. And I know many, many of you have too.

So, I’m going to ask you a question. What was mental illness before it was labeled as such? Before behaviors were categorized, before thought processes were grouped, and before disorders were diagnosed and therefore even capable of being stigmatized? Before all of that, what the hell was it?

I’ll tell you. And it’s the same exact thing as it is today.

It’s your brain.
Specifically, it’s how your brain developed in the circumstances and environment that it was given. And now, I promise you, it’s doing its absolute best to get you through life the only way it knows how.

It’s not you.
It’s not your willpower.
It’s not your character.
It’s not your morals.
It’s not what you lack.
It’s not your worth.
It’s not a diagnosis.
And it’s not you.

It’s not you.

So what does that mean?
Well, it means you’ve gotten as far as you have with fewer tools- or the wrong tools…with less simplicity, more pain, and far more confusion. It means you’ve gotten as far as you have, with the cards that you were dealt. It means you’ve learned to be resourceful, create options when you had none, and adapt relentlessly…and if you’re reading this, it means that you never gave up.

So you know what I think that makes you?

Pretty damn badass.

Be proud of your fight.
Be proud of you.


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