This is an embarrassing video to upload. I originally had no intention of ever letting this video see the light of day, but this is what PTSD looks like some days. It’s especially lonely those days, and if this video finds another lonely soul and reflects their experience in a way that helps them, my embarrassment is worth it. I don’t like to upload videos like this. I enjoy bringing light and positivity to the online spaces I inhabit, but PTSD is every day. Anger and hurt and confusion are every day. In attempts of giving purpose to my experience, I am going to talk about my struggles.