My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder. I have uploaded videos in different mood states to show some contrasts. In this video, my mood feels ‘okay’ but I am having trouble thinking and processing. My processing is slowing right down, with big pauses. I am not actually thinking during the pauses. I’m pretty much shutdown. So I think I’m affected more by the PTSD than the bipolar here.
I talk a little about social media trolls and related topics but I don’t do a lot of actual talking. I’ve shown this video to show some of how I am affected which makes communicating difficult. I am constantly distracted and during most of the video, I am rolling some pens across the desk (which you can’t see). Doing this some kind of movement) seems to help stop me freezing and dissociating completely.
I haven’t told you all of what I am processing. Very complex but linked to this.