My name is Xanthe Wyse. I have been diagnosed with bipolar 1 disorder & post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). I am finally seeing a trauma psychologist and I am also on meds to help reduced severity of the bipolar, but I do most of my processing creatively, even if it looks strange to others.
I have the shutdown presentation of PTSD and get triggered by intense emotions, so most of the time, intense emotions are shut down. In elevated moods, I feel a hyperarousal energy and I need to do something with it.
I decided to destroy some fishnet stockings in symbolic ways using an axe and a knife. It is all metaphor known to me what exactly it means. It is essentially trauma re-enactment in metaphor.
Some people might find this funny or disturbing or both.