TW: mention of rape
My name is Xanthe Wyse. I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder.
I use music and movement to help me discharge the hyperarousal energy when triggered with PTSD. I usually have shutdowns with PTSD, but sometimes I also go into fight/flight. Vigorous movement (usually to music) can help get the hyperarousal energy out. I often dance or dance-walk to a song that fits my mood. In doing so, I process gently the trauma and get out the emotions that I shut down and don’t fully feel (including anger).
Politics and religion can be very triggering for me. By triggered, I have a reaction that makes me go into freeze/shutdown or fight/flight and may also have an emotional reaction (typically anger and/or distress).
If I don’t do something with the energy, my anxiety increases and may result in panic attacks.
I chose music that fits my mood and communicates what I want to say. Dance or dance-walk usually but sometimes just walk listening to music. Pace and intensity proportional to my energy levels. It helps regulate my moods and reduce my anxiety and promotes better sleep.