Tag Archives: grief

Painting to express mixed mood – art as therapy – bipolar, PTSD, grief, trauma. Sunset, water.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar 1 disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). I have filmed progress with this painting but I decided to only upload this video and maybe any future ones finishing off. I was painting without music saying what I was doing and it wasn’t going so well. So I listened to… Read More »

Relationships & Marriage—My Trauma Is A Thief: PTSD Trauma & Stressor (Episode 109)

We all experience trauma in life. Trauma doesn’t discriminate. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, C-PTSD and Trauma & Stressor-related Disorder are silent injuries. Not only is it not confined to just our military, first-responders and law enforcement servants, it has many different origins for different people (like you and I). And, the effects of trauma and… Read More »

Being A Man & Removing The Stigma Of Getting Professional Help: PTSD Trauma & Stressor (Episode 110)

We all experience trauma in life. Trauma doesn’t discriminate. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, C-PTSD and Trauma & Stressor-related Disorder are silent injuries. Not only is it not confined to just our military, first-responders and law enforcement servants, it has many different origins for different people (like you and I). And, the effects of trauma and… Read More »

Compassion For Yourself…You Did Your Best: PTSD Trauma & Stressor (Episode 108)

We all experience trauma in life. Trauma doesn’t discriminate. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, C-PTSD and Trauma & Stressor-related Disorder are silent injuries. Not only is it not confined to just our military, first-responders and law enforcement servants, it has many different origins for different people (like you and I). And, the effects of trauma and… Read More »

Why a Bad Series Finale Ruins the Whole Show

This episode is brought to you by the Music for Scientists album! Stream the album on major music services here: https://biglink.to/music-for-scientists. Check out the “For Your Love” music video here: https://youtu.be/YGjjvd34Cvc. Objectively, some shows end with rough final acts, but we are finding that this isn’t the only factor in our discontent. Unsatisfactory finales also… Read More »

Mixed mood bipolar, processing PTSD & grief with colour. Painful muscles. Shutdown emotions.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). PTSD is avoidance and shutdown presentation. When I feel emotions, they are incredibly intense which then triggers shutdown again. I have my emotions shutdown most of the time. In my last video, I expressed some controlled anger. But still seemed relatively calm outwardly.… Read More »

Perseverance & Patience During My Triggers: PTSD Trauma & Stressor (Episode 106)

We all experience trauma in life. Trauma doesn’t discriminate. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, C-PTSD and Trauma & Stressor-related Disorder are silent injuries. Not only is it not confined to just our military, first-responders and law enforcement servants, it has many different origins for different people (like you and I). And, the effects of trauma and… Read More »

Exhausted, melancholy, low mixed mood bipolar, PTSD

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar 1 disorder and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). I have the avoidance and shutdown presentation of PTSD. When I do intense processing, my mood elevates and vice versa. What goes up must come down. In recent videos, would have seen aspects of mania for me, despite my being on… Read More »

PTSD Trauma & Stressor (Episode 105): "Even Though" Faith—The Valley of Darkness

We all experience trauma in life. Trauma doesn’t discriminate. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, C-PTSD and Trauma & Stressor-related Disorder are silent injuries. Not only is it not confined to just our military, first-responders and law enforcement servants, it has many different origins for different people (like you and I). And, the effects of trauma and… Read More »

PTSD Trauma & Stressor (Episode 104): The Weight (Wait) of Anxiety

We all experience trauma in life. Trauma doesn’t discriminate. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, C-PTSD and Trauma & Stressor-related Disorder are silent injuries. Not only is it not confined to just our military, first-responders and law enforcement servants, it has many different origins for different people (like you and I). And, the effects of trauma and… Read More »

Grounded bipolar, processing sad emotions, shutdown emotion, PTSD.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar 1 disorder and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). If compare this to video this morning, will see a big contrast. I have had elevated mood for weeks, processing something intense (name change). Listened to upbeat music all day when worked then went to the gym. I thought I had… Read More »

PTSD Trauma & Stressor (Episode 97): What It Feels Like To Have PTSD—An Analogy

We all experience trauma in life. Trauma doesn’t discriminate. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, C-PTSD and Trauma & Stressor-related Disorder are silent injuries. Not only is it not confined to just our military, first-responders and law enforcement servants, it has many different origins for different people (like you and I). And, the effects of trauma and… Read More »

Bipolar mood crash, mixed features. Processing trauma, grief. PTSD.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Current diagnoses: bipolar 1 disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder, social anxiety disorder. Historical diagnoses: major depressive disorder (treatment resistant), generalised anxiety disorder. Last 2 videos uploaded from a mania episode in 2017. May notice that emotion shut down (how my PTSD would usually present), less of a filter talking about some… Read More »