Tag Archives: Processing

PTSD – post-traumatic stress disorder – childhood presentation – avoidance, shutdowns

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar 1 disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder. Bipolar and PTSD currently affecting me the most. My presentation of PTSD isn’t well known. Is the childhood presentation of mainly avoidance and shutdowns. During mania episodes, I am more likely to experience the typical presentation of PTSD as… Read More »

Intense processing anger, PTSD. Rape, sexual assault, sexual abuse, sexual violence.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). This video is intense. I cut up a sculpture I made while I processed as I didn’t fully express the emotion of anger as emotion (intense emotions is one of my biggest triggers, usually triggering a shut down). Doing something symbolic while I… Read More »

You Oughta Know for Valentine's Day

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar 1 disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). My mood is elevated with mixed features in this video. The song You Oughta Know (Alanis Morisette) fitted my mood so while listening to it, I though of a quick improvised video with simple props. This song captures the anger of being… Read More »

Processing trauma and expressing emotions with colour and music. Bipolar, PTSD. Mixed features.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar 1 disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Last video was made earlier today. It was improvised with some simple props gathered just prior. Captures elevated mood (hypomania to mania), expressing anger and humour. Without strongly feeling the emotion of anger. I find creative expression to be therapeutic and help… Read More »

Mixed mood bipolar, processing PTSD & grief with colour. Painful muscles. Shutdown emotions.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). PTSD is avoidance and shutdown presentation. When I feel emotions, they are incredibly intense which then triggers shutdown again. I have my emotions shutdown most of the time. In my last video, I expressed some controlled anger. But still seemed relatively calm outwardly.… Read More »

Valentine's Day. Processing romance triggers. PTSD. Courage. Disability.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar 1 disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder. I am on meds and have had a lot of therapy. Also do most of my trauma processing on my own. I have the avoidance and shutdown presentation of PTSD which includes avoiding intense emotions. Even though I avoid… Read More »

Wonder Woman symbolism in bipolar mania, art. Processing PTSD.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar 1 disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Last video I had a vent and expressed intense emotion including anger. Very rare for me as I have the shutdown presentation of PTSD which includes shutdown emotions. This is because I get triggered by intense emotions. I went to see Wonder… Read More »

Painting Goddess – acrylic colour layers face – part 7

My name is Xanthe Wyse. I am a hobby painter who has had 2 solo art as therapy exhibitions. I like painting in vibrant colours usually with acrylics on canvas. Demonstrating painting a goddess with the processing I do along the way with music. Processing post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Also give lots of painting tips.… Read More »

Grounded bipolar, processing sad emotions, shutdown emotion, PTSD.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar 1 disorder and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). If compare this to video this morning, will see a big contrast. I have had elevated mood for weeks, processing something intense (name change). Listened to upbeat music all day when worked then went to the gym. I thought I had… Read More »

Therapeutic smashing symbolic objects processing trauma. Creative storytelling. Bipolar. PTSD.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder. Mood is elevated in this video, yet under control. I feel calm yet energised, consistent with doing processing for me which also can seem somewhere between hypomania and mania for me. This video is creative story telling in metaphor processing… Read More »

Processing name change from trauma with music and messy painting.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder. Currently processing my name change which took place in a psychiatric unit in 2015. I went in with legal name Miranda came out with legal name Xanthe. I changed my name because it became such a massive trigger with PTSD… Read More »

Destroying hard drive. Destruction therapy destroying laptop – part 1

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Will tell you what I am doing this video then why. I was listening to “Cuz I Can” by P!nk on repeat which is why I didn’t speak much. I showed some of the lyrics that stood out to me (in my journal). It’s a song with a bit of… Read More »

Mania episode off meds – knew had PTSD before officially diagnosed.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. This video was during a mania episode in 2017 when I was off medications (and lost weight with increased anxiety plus removing the side effects of the meds). I am more confident, make more ‘eye contact’ with the camera, talk fast (pressure of speech). I am still insisting I am… Read More »