Tag Archives: symbolic

Mixed mood bipolar, processing PTSD & grief with colour. Painful muscles. Shutdown emotions.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). PTSD is avoidance and shutdown presentation. When I feel emotions, they are incredibly intense which then triggers shutdown again. I have my emotions shutdown most of the time. In my last video, I expressed some controlled anger. But still seemed relatively calm outwardly.… Read More »

Exhausted, melancholy, low mixed mood bipolar, PTSD

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar 1 disorder and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). I have the avoidance and shutdown presentation of PTSD. When I do intense processing, my mood elevates and vice versa. What goes up must come down. In recent videos, would have seen aspects of mania for me, despite my being on… Read More »

Destroying hard drive. Destruction therapy destroying laptop – part 1

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Will tell you what I am doing this video then why. I was listening to “Cuz I Can” by P!nk on repeat which is why I didn’t speak much. I showed some of the lyrics that stood out to me (in my journal). It’s a song with a bit of… Read More »