Tag Archives: therapeutic

You Oughta Know for Valentine's Day

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar 1 disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). My mood is elevated with mixed features in this video. The song You Oughta Know (Alanis Morisette) fitted my mood so while listening to it, I though of a quick improvised video with simple props. This song captures the anger of being… Read More »

Bipolar mixed mood processing PTSD. Disability. Ableism. Purpose. Expression.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar 1 disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder, social anxiety disorder. I have severe disability yet sometimes I look ‘well’ and fine when I’m not. I get called ‘ableist’ by zealots because I don’t see my diagnoses as my entire identity. I don’t like showing myself in this state but I… Read More »

Wonder Woman symbolism in bipolar mania, art. Processing PTSD.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar 1 disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD). Last video I had a vent and expressed intense emotion including anger. Very rare for me as I have the shutdown presentation of PTSD which includes shutdown emotions. This is because I get triggered by intense emotions. I went to see Wonder… Read More »

Devine, goddess of fire painting reveal in natural light – part 14

My name is Xanthe Wyse. I filmed painting this goddess of fire, Devine. Acrylics on canvas. See previous videos – 13 parts. I like to paint metaphor and mood. All improvised. This short video showing what she looks like in natural light as I painted her under artificial light in my dark bedroom so the… Read More »

Therapeutic smashing symbolic objects processing trauma. Creative storytelling. Bipolar. PTSD.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder. Mood is elevated in this video, yet under control. I feel calm yet energised, consistent with doing processing for me which also can seem somewhere between hypomania and mania for me. This video is creative story telling in metaphor processing… Read More »

Processing name change from trauma with music and messy painting.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar disorder, post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder. Currently processing my name change which took place in a psychiatric unit in 2015. I went in with legal name Miranda came out with legal name Xanthe. I changed my name because it became such a massive trigger with PTSD… Read More »

Destroying hard drive. Destruction therapy destroying laptop – part 1

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Will tell you what I am doing this video then why. I was listening to “Cuz I Can” by P!nk on repeat which is why I didn’t speak much. I showed some of the lyrics that stood out to me (in my journal). It’s a song with a bit of… Read More »

Weight gain bipolar meds. Listening without judging. Cognitive impairments.

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar disorder (type 1), post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder. I find it easier and less stressful to make improvised, unscripted videos, ‘mistakes’ and all, raw, unpolished. Also, the viewer gets to see aspects of my diagnoses, despite meds. In this video, I talk a bit about side… Read More »

Therapeutic use of sex toys to discharge energy as orgasms with PTSD, bipolar

My name is Xanthe Wyse. Diagnosed bipolar disorder (type), post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), social anxiety disorder. The PTSD is mainly from 2 specific sexual traumas – child and adult. I grew up with shame from religious indoctrination, other people’s hangups, abuse, trauma. Letting go of that shame has been therapeutic. Religious indoctrination that masturbation is… Read More »